I spent the day tring to decide if I should rent the movie My Own Private Idaho by Gus van Zandt myself, or have my friend get it for free from the library. I need to see that movie its a classic for hustlers/rent boys. And I admire Gus van Zandt as a director ever since I saw Elephant. He is bleeding indy and a powerful voice against establishment, it strickes a cord withthe rebel in me. He magically just don't just try to show the characters or story but makes sure you understand the emotions of the characters and movie. He is a powerful advocate for real life issues of people on the edge of society.
The only problem is that my friend is gay and in love with kind of. I love him to death as a friend and visit regurally to check up on him and eat dinner or lunch,bring him the paper. He is 65 and hard at he aring and lonely, I never ask for anything I enjoy talking to him. And everyone needs friends. But its just hard when your gay for pay hustler to have someone fall in love with you. Because I am gay for pay not for fun. What made what I was about to do later on little hard.
An old friend had scheduled a visit by me, I call him that since he is kind of a sugardad/friend/ client/benefactor all in one.
It was weird, because it was the first time I really been alone with him.
We smoked weed and hung out and I got way to drunk to perform. I kind of always do get drunk when alone with a guy. Three years of hustling and I haven't still managed to calm down and convince myself I am bi.
Me and this particular friend have a history.
We meet about two summers ago, me and this beautiful Canadian girl, Roxy, that was a struggling actress new to New York.
She had a benefactor relationship before and she could not find anything like it here in New York. I was fresh of my first 6 months of being a male escort and never thought about having a sugardad until her, even for never thought of anyone wanting a male to be that.
All I had learned about male escorting I learned from two older escorts in The East Village brothel I belonged to for 6 months, I asked her if she would team up with me, she agreed and I immediatly found a bisexual sugardad for us.
It was my first bi experience really.
And it was AMAZING ! Sure I done the gay for pay stuff but never been active before and it was her first threesome with two men. He is Jewish,in 50's in great shape and a totall renneisance man, big weed smoker, almost like having Cheech and Chong as your old dirty uncle,and he listen to our kind of music. I always saw him as a peer dispite the age different. He didn't try to act young, he was just young at heart. He has a penthouse in heart of midtown. He was so cool from moment me and her came in, we clicked on all levels emotionally,mentally and sexually. We used to meet once a week after that every thursday for smoking weed drinking an hours of sex.
She was so cool and her personality amazing. Half white/half asian a beautiful mix and so warm. He and I became more like friends than he my benefactor. But we drited apart especially after she left for Canada again. Now recently she moved back to New York and they have been meeting each other, and now I was going there alone. I was so nervous, it was awkward. But I managed, he came hard and I guess he was impressed by my skills and my body. He didn't belive I don't work out, his hands where all over my abs. He ended our nude wrestling session by mastrubating on my butt, I know he came hard, one of my favorite things is actually collecting sound bites of men climaxing, since I started doing escorting and men can have soft orgasm or huge ones, he had a big one. I was so drunk and stoned I could not move. Afterwards we smoked some more he spoke about various sugarbabes and asked about Roxy, if me and her are still doing threeways together, and he asked if it was ok for him to see her alone. I didn't know what to say, its ok for me but I do want money. I was a little worried that he was upset that I could not get hard. I have always managed in threesomes no matter how bi the activity I manage as long as a female is there. I hope we can see each other again, and I need to talk to Roxy so we get our stories straight.
He said that next time we will be at my place but I am not sure if he will want me to go back. Its a shame cause he is really cool and one of the few guys I like hanging out with I will miss the fact that he didn't treat me like a hustler, but as a friend. And of course steady money is always welcome.
The only problem is that my friend is gay and in love with kind of. I love him to death as a friend and visit regurally to check up on him and eat dinner or lunch,bring him the paper. He is 65 and hard at he aring and lonely, I never ask for anything I enjoy talking to him. And everyone needs friends. But its just hard when your gay for pay hustler to have someone fall in love with you. Because I am gay for pay not for fun. What made what I was about to do later on little hard.
An old friend had scheduled a visit by me, I call him that since he is kind of a sugardad/friend/ client/benefactor all in one.
It was weird, because it was the first time I really been alone with him.
We smoked weed and hung out and I got way to drunk to perform. I kind of always do get drunk when alone with a guy. Three years of hustling and I haven't still managed to calm down and convince myself I am bi.
Me and this particular friend have a history.
We meet about two summers ago, me and this beautiful Canadian girl, Roxy, that was a struggling actress new to New York.
She had a benefactor relationship before and she could not find anything like it here in New York. I was fresh of my first 6 months of being a male escort and never thought about having a sugardad until her, even for never thought of anyone wanting a male to be that.
All I had learned about male escorting I learned from two older escorts in The East Village brothel I belonged to for 6 months, I asked her if she would team up with me, she agreed and I immediatly found a bisexual sugardad for us.
It was my first bi experience really.
And it was AMAZING ! Sure I done the gay for pay stuff but never been active before and it was her first threesome with two men. He is Jewish,in 50's in great shape and a totall renneisance man, big weed smoker, almost like having Cheech and Chong as your old dirty uncle,and he listen to our kind of music. I always saw him as a peer dispite the age different. He didn't try to act young, he was just young at heart. He has a penthouse in heart of midtown. He was so cool from moment me and her came in, we clicked on all levels emotionally,mentally and sexually. We used to meet once a week after that every thursday for smoking weed drinking an hours of sex.
She was so cool and her personality amazing. Half white/half asian a beautiful mix and so warm. He and I became more like friends than he my benefactor. But we drited apart especially after she left for Canada again. Now recently she moved back to New York and they have been meeting each other, and now I was going there alone. I was so nervous, it was awkward. But I managed, he came hard and I guess he was impressed by my skills and my body. He didn't belive I don't work out, his hands where all over my abs. He ended our nude wrestling session by mastrubating on my butt, I know he came hard, one of my favorite things is actually collecting sound bites of men climaxing, since I started doing escorting and men can have soft orgasm or huge ones, he had a big one. I was so drunk and stoned I could not move. Afterwards we smoked some more he spoke about various sugarbabes and asked about Roxy, if me and her are still doing threeways together, and he asked if it was ok for him to see her alone. I didn't know what to say, its ok for me but I do want money. I was a little worried that he was upset that I could not get hard. I have always managed in threesomes no matter how bi the activity I manage as long as a female is there. I hope we can see each other again, and I need to talk to Roxy so we get our stories straight.
He said that next time we will be at my place but I am not sure if he will want me to go back. Its a shame cause he is really cool and one of the few guys I like hanging out with I will miss the fact that he didn't treat me like a hustler, but as a friend. And of course steady money is always welcome.
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