Diary of a Manhattan Masseur

Q&A with the Male escort

2010-03-24T15:30:00.001-07:00

I decided to reach out to former clients and partners, some escorts and some people I encountered that know I do this and some that have no idea and asked them what they would like to ask a male escort if they got 5 questions.
This will be an ongoing series for me. The first set of 5 questions comes courtesy from my female partner and friend M that is a sex addict. The kind that gets her in trouble not the Tiger Woods type that goes to rehab once she is caught, she found the perfect proffession..hehe..
Enjoy..
1. How big does your dick have to be in order to be a male escort
A= Bigger than the clients... ;) especially in Mandingo Cuckhold fetish fantasy

2. Can you be straight and take it in the ass for your job? (Can you take it in the ass for your job and still be straight?)
A= Hmm I dont really know, if you define sexulity by physical acts then no, but to do that would be to minimize homosexual relationships and say that they are pure sexual, in my experience homosexual and queer people feel love, feel crushes and write love letters as well. Besides who is straight the male escort that cant get hard with a man and has to bottom, or the guy that gets hard before entering room and always wants to top...? Both claim they are straight..is sex the new love? I am not qualified to answer..

3. How many times do you cum a day? Do clients expect you to cum? How can you extend the life of your libido so your dick doesn't get flacid after a few orgasms?
A=I love you Michelle mind always in the gutter...hahaha..ok..
Most I worked is 4 times in a row... I remmeber working with this librarian chick biggest boobs ever unreal slim waist, glasses totally hipster..we had three clients back to back, then we stayed the night in our hotel room and I did her twice after that so 6 times..thats work mood..( in personal life its different...) Clients expect me to cum, thats a part of the fetish, in the beginning i managed to fake it, sometimes, just pull out put my dick in the girls mouth she gargles up spit and pretends to choke..Extend the life of my libido? The girl is vital for my work, she has to treat me like I am not a partner or a client..make me forget I am working...they are the key to my libido..

4. Is it better to work for an agency or be your own boss?
I been with both and I am still with both agency and independant...
Agency is better for bigger clients and steady work but at the same time nobody cares about me as I do and there is allot of bad stuff that happen behind closed doors in agencies...I would say agency to learn then go independant....

5. Are your clients primarily open about their sexuality or are they closeted and just fulfilling their "deviant" needs on the DownLow?
A= Your joking what about mandingo does not scream homoerotic? closet all the way..i dont mind they still got to pay hahaha

From BlackPipeLayerz INc.

2010-03-01T12:33:00.000-08:00

A guide...
for real..... I love USA, love it LOVE IT!!!

I frequently receive requests from a hubby/boyfriend as to how to turn their wives into BBC sluts and always my answer has been, if you as the hubby/boyfriend can not convince her, how then can I as a total stranger help?!  I received this document from one of the groups I belong to and I want to share it because in my opinion, it provides a detailed blueprint as to how one may accomplish their stated objective.   Whenever I receive information about any subject I am curious about and wish to explore, I am like a sponge, I soak up ALL the info I can and then wring out that which does not apply to me and my specific situation. So if this subject is of interest, then I would recommend that you use those parts that fit your situation and discard those that do not apply.  Remember be careful what you ask for, cause you just may get it!    If you really want your wife/girlfriend to be a slut for black dick, you have to take it slowly, but HAVE A PLAN!!   One of the most successful methods is to begin to frequently bring home videos that exclusively have interracial content in them. If you want to be successful at this manipulation don’t start showing her an aggressive group of black guys gang-fucking a white slut! You should work your way towards that though, over a period of several weeks, since it will give you a bench mark of how far she is turned on by the idea, and also depend on whether your ultimate goal is turning her into a total slut for black dicks. But what ever your boundary is, you need to start off slowly and remember to approach the situation in a jovial fashion. Joking her along about “How about having a black guy then” and seeing what her reactions are etc.  When you first begin and you’re watching an interracial scene in a video, it’s very important to let her know how much it turns you on, not by telling her, but by showing her! Assuming that as you watch the videos, you’ll make love to her by kissing and caressing her, slowly, make sure her pussy gets wet as you play with her. Then begin to eat her pussy more aggressively as interracial scenes are showing. And when you strip and fuck her, try to make sure that you fuck her harder and deeper than you do when you’re not watching an interracial video.  Let the way you ‘work her’ while watching black men using white women leave her in no doubt that seeing that pretty white whore doing black dick really makes you hot and results in her getting better sex. Then make sure that when you make love without the interracial videos that it’s not as pleasurable for her.  If you do this right, she’ll be suggesting or begging that you watch interracial videos on a regular basis. As time goes on and you know she has got the connection between the level of satisfaction she gets when watching interracial videos. That’s when you begin to show her more explicit videos, eventually involving multiple black dicks, gangbangs, anal and some serious whoring for black guys by white housewives!   It would be a good idea at this point or earlier if you think she’s ready for it, that you introduce a large, thick black dildo/vibrator into the love making, so she gets to feel what big black dicks are like. But for Christ sake, when penetrating it first off, do it slowly and carefully, maybe lubricating it with saliva or lube jell. You don’t want to put her off the size, because this could go against you in the later stage of actually suggesting she try black!  It’s important that when you use the black dildo/vibrator you do everything to see that her pleasure is increased, including bringing her to multiple orgasms with the dildo, your cock and  your mouth, until she can’t stand it and pushes you away!  The next step is a little more difficult, but by this point you should have found a way to verbalize how hot it makes you feel to see the white sluts in the videos with black dicks. Then as you’re making love and using the black dildo on her, you should let her know that you’ve fantasized of seeing her in that situation with a real black dick. Try and say it in a ’matter of fact’ style.  Don’t look for her agreement at all at this stage just let her know it’s a fantasy of yours. She might not respond verbally at this stage, but you can be sure the train of thought will run through her mind. She might even say she could never do that! It will take a little time, even some time, but if you’re patient and continue to see that the only time she is totally satisfied is when you’re watching interracial videos, using the black dildo and talking about how much you’d like to see her with the ‘real thing’. Eventually she’ll get comfortable with the idea and start fantasizing about it herself. Encouraging her to use the big black dildo/vibrator when you’re not around might help reinforce the fantasy.  Joke about the situation to her, pass comments to her while in the car and in town when seeing a black guy. Let her know it’s a bit of fun but it’s a real turn on for you. Getting visibly hard through your trousers in these situations will do the most to convince her, this isn’t just fantasy for you and her in the bedroom, that its reality. Really turns you on to the idea of seeing real black guys with her.  Talk to her and continue to tell her how much you’d like to see her do it, and ask her to admit that she’d like it. If she says she won’t do it, or doesn’t respond after a few weeks of super sex and multiple orgasms, you should just stop and leave her ‘high and dry’ and not bring her to orgasm. If she asks what’s wrong, tell her that you really had hoped she would share your fantasies and when she is so firmly opposed, it turns you off. It won’t take long until she will tell you what you want to hear and begins to really fantasize herself!  By this time you should be seriously thinking about bringing the whole experience to fruition. This will involve some deep subtlety and manipulation followed by swift decisive and forceful action to secure your new lifestyle (and by this I don’t mean getting some black guy to rape her!).  Introducing her to interracial swing sites on the net, placing ads informing of possible sexual liaisons between your wife and black guys at some future date, letting them know that at this stage although committed to the idea that you both are going easy until you’ve found the right guy for her first black experience. Get her to chat personally and privately to a black guy, you’ve vetted and therefore he has got to first base. Let him know what maybe in the offering so that he can happily help manipulate and seduce her on-line. Helping to reinforce those desires that have found a newly opened door in her mind. Remember she doesn’t have to know that you’ve been contacting any black guys, just let her get talking to some you’ve vetted privately in a chat room on Yahoo or Excite. This can bring pleasures on all of its own, but don’t get stuck at this stage too long or all those willing black guys might just ditch the wanton whoring bitch.  Go easy to some extent, swap photos, test his/their legitimacy, posit questions on his/their sexual likes and dislikes, get to speak to him/them on the phone, meet in a public place, take the wife/girlfriend out for a prearranged drink etc.   The rest you can only dream about now, but in the future it could be your reality.  The only thing I would warn guys about is to not pursue this unless you’re really sure you want your wife/girlfriend to be a whore for black dick. Like any extremely pleasurable experience, it will be very difficult to give up once she has tried it and I guarantee that she will find it pleasurable beyond belief, as only a black man can make a woman feel. A return to anything else (on average shorter and thinner) seems mundane and she won’t be able to stop after she’s had a thick black dick in her pussy. You will have a fully-fledged slut for black dick for the rest of your life!  But if you’re really sure this is what you want then do it and do it now without delay!  It takes some planning and a little work, but the first time you see a black guy strip your wife/girlfriend, work her nipples and clit as he undresses her. The first time you see the nervous look in her eyes and hear her whimpers as she looks for your approval, knowing she’s so turned on that she couldn’t stop anyway....  The first time you see a black hand slip up your wife’s/girlfriend’s milky white thigh under her skirt to her soaking wet and aching pussy and finger her within minutes of meeting her in a dark restaurant or hotel bar. The first time you see her on her knees as that thick black dick glides past her lips and you know it’s her greedy mouth’s saliva making that black skin glide and shine.....  The first time you see that long, thick black meat sliding into your wife’s/girlfriend’s open cunt, being thoroughly soaked with her cum as you watch her eyes roll back into her head as he brings her to multiple orgasms like you could never do, and the first time you see her take a long thick black dick in her mouth, pussy and ass at the same time, begging them to fill her with their potent black sperm......   The first time you watch her dress to go out, knowing she’s dressing like a total slut because she’s going to get that black dick that she’s been thinking about all day......  The first time she comes home at 5 a.m. thoroughly fucked, worn and aching from thick black glands and coated in dry cum all over her and you put your hand under her skirt and feel the soaking wet panties she put back on to keep the massive amounts of cum from running down her legs which had been dispensed by swollen oversized black balls, once full with their extra heavy loads of powerful sperm.....  The first time you smell cum on her face, her mouth, her hair, her tits and you know she’s been whoring all night....  The first time you see her in a bar being passed from one black guy to another as they dance slowly with her, running their hands all over her on the dance floor and every guy in the place knowing your wife’s/girlfriend a whore for black dick.....  The first time you see your wife/girlfriend enter a room full of black guys because she’s being whored out by a special black guy who really knows how to please her.....  The first time you watch her get fucked all night long, guys cumming in her and on her....  The first time you watch her begging for more and more black dick as guys tease her with the tips of their giant black manhood’s, putting them at the entrance to her pussy, then withdrawing them again and again while she begs for them to fill her.....  The first time you fuck her after she’s been fucked by a big black guy and your inadequate cock feels even more so because of her stretched hole....  The first time you hear her admit over and over that she’s a total whore for black dick, then you will know all your efforts, time and care will have been well worth it!  Once you’ve had these experiences, then you can write and tell the world what a lucky guy you are and know that you are envied by so many others out there who don’t have your courage  or who are married to women that will never live up to their fantasies! Or those who are too wimpish, limpish or racially challenged to make their fantasies their realities.  It’s worth it. You know deep down that your second best to any black man is no contest. If your cocks hard now, take it out and have a look, hold it and tell me, do you really think you’re a match for black dick? Look at its length, can you really say its long enough? Look at the head, can you really say it’s big enough? Feel your girth, come on is that really thick enough? Cos you now it ain’t no match, no way.   Does your wife/girlfriend really think your big enough, come on.... Big enough compared to what, another white man, yeah sure! But let her try a hand-selected (for size) BLACK GUY! Now that’s the real contest!  This is not meant to degrade anyone but a tool for you non-black guys that have the fantasy of a black guy with your woman! But remember the age old proverb “Once you go black, you do not go back!”  Use this information at your own risk, the group and owners advise that we assume no liability for the actions regarding the use of this information. Basically, if you lose your significant other to be used like a cum receptacle by one or many long and thick big black cocks, we warned you it might happen.

Courtesy of BLackPipeLayerz Inc.

Mandingo Mandingo ohh Mandingo !!!!..

2010-03-01T12:24:00.000-08:00

Ok so I belong to Pipelayerz INc and NYC Mandingos..
yes people its real they do exits..
ITs a group or website where women advertise for gangbangs and husbands advertise their wives and gf to be taken by black studs..
They specify how large they want the guys to be and how many.
Its a little crazy, now I am wondering....just becasue I am from Europe and I have to admit that its hard to really conjure up that agressive ghetto black man blame white people for everything mentality that is needed to accuratley be able to be a real Mandingo black stud, when you have a white father that put me in private schools, took me travelling all over the world and saved my life as an infant. Still I do manage, somehow, with great practice to be a hip hop light version of the real authentic black man sex experience...
Anyway, I do wonder how do my fellow Mandingos manage to be angry black men when we have a black president? Who gets used in these clubds? The white woman and men ordering up black men to serve their desires? And haveing black gladiators serve in line for the chance to penetrate white woman for a white mans pleasure?
I guess it goes down to the basic question in BDSM, who is teh one with power? The dominanat or the submissive that takes abuse? In teh end everyone knows that its the submissive that holds all power! becasue they hold the all powerful safe word...and the dominat has to stop when that is uttered. Its like escorting..really who is in power the prostitute that gets paid? Or the cleint that submits himself to his desires to that degree that he is willing to pay for it ?
Anyway..here follows from BlackPipeLayerz Inc.

HOME SICKNESS

2010-01-13T16:40:00.001-08:00

some more eye candy...
for me, I really need to go home..anyone want to come with me ?
And What The FUCK was Tiger thinking ?

Culture shock...

2010-01-13T16:12:00.000-08:00

I remember the first time I ever worked.
I was so nervous.
I was homeless and broke in New York.
I didn't know anyone and I was out of luck. I basically was couch surfing with an ex and my uncle had lied about cosigning a loan for me. I been tricked from my home country to USA with his false promise.
I needed money fast, so I went online..
I saw an ad for a Mandingo cuckold fetish for allot of money.
A wealthy white male wanted to see a live sex show with a black male and a white female.
I got the job, I just had to find a female partner...
Luckily I found a petite blond girl from Florida, hopeless cocaine addict and drunk but hey cant all be perfect. She was cute and 4'11 and tiny..
I was at the time 205 lbs..
I was so d drunk at that first gig the details are little fuzzy. I remember worrying if I could get hard.
Nonetheless I managed and the rush was amazing, for getting money for sex.
Anyway the whole black stud, Mandingo fetish was kind of weird for me. This guy screaming and asking if I ever had white woman before, if i liked white pussy and so on.
It was weird since I am from Europe.
Not only any part of Europe, I come from a place where our women are the most beautiful in the world.
Like natural beauty, they seriously don't wear allot of make up. And I never have had sex with a black female at that point.
( I have now...)
Anyway, I been feeling homesick recently since my father is ill and I keep getting reminded by my homeland all the time.

I miss it terrible, and whats funny is that although I am an oddity back home, I feel more at odds somehow here in USA.
In Europe my color was a curiosity, here I am a fetish.
I am supposed to play basketball, speak slang, be rough, rude and say ma nigga.
(something really funny since all the Asian kids on my block keep saying it 24/7..)

I love the diversity here in USA but there is less integration I feel, we have Asian neighborhoods, Irish, polish and black.
Its small social islands of culture. But whats remarkable to me is that they all call themselves American. I somehow feel that I can become an American more easily than I can become Scandinavian...
Ohh well here is tribute to my native country...
I miss it...

Best Sites ever...

2010-01-09T20:42:00.000-08:00

I just found the coolest sites ever..
Besides being a member of Pipelayerz..NYC
thats right hahaha
thats a real name..
Black Pipelayerz, I love it..
I been really browsing online and found lots of cool sites to keep my sex addiction occupied.

I have to share..
Black Sticks in White Chicks
http://galleries.pimproll.com/d/bswc/vids/81859/10/index.html?p=ft&r=pimp4988&c=1&j=13&src=galleries
Cuckhold
http://cuckold-place.net/

Its like magic...
A new education...

News

2010-01-08T16:30:00.000-08:00

I had a reading yesterday..
It went well.
I was dead nervous but its my second time reading, I think that I am getting more used to it.
The venue was Happy Ending, it was fun and felt safe being around allot of sex workers.
What was suprising to me was the number of people that recognized me, it was a little startling at first and especially after when two females invited me to drinks and dinner.
I obliged, but the funny thing is, that they wanted Damien Decker!!!
Not really the person behind the male escort.
See they are two different people, the one that does the reading is a character, he is the escort, the mandingo big black cock stud walking hardon!!!

The real me is slightly more intelligent that an character out of an interracial porn movie.
I hope.
Anyway I could have fucked them, but, thats what I get paid for, really the exiting part was the talking, the discussion, the normal hanging out and hugs.
That turned me on and gave me glimpses of what a normal life after escorting is.
That was fun.

Anyway, I am supposed to have a orgy next week.
A Indian buisness man wants to see me, he is bi, I am suprised that I am the main attraction, since he even wants to see massage alone with me.
I am basically going to be his sugarbabe and he wants me to have fun so I can bring up to two girls to have sex with while he watches me as long as he can feel my body and watch my cock.
Thats cool work seriously.

What else is new is that I will introduce writtings from two of my partners shortly,one brand brand new and one that I worked with and have worked for a long time.
Two contrasting views.
Bye for now..
BTW check out my man David henry Sterry..he is a former sex worker turned best selling author..
Cheers....

TIgger Woods and Interracial/Cultural Dating

2009-12-27T19:47:00.001-08:00

As a male from a very different cultural background than USA I sometimes wonder about the differences in cultures.
I mean for example take Tiger Woods? He did not only marry a white girl, he married a Swedish girl.
Think about it, with so many interracial barriers between black and white, I work as a cuckold Mandingo fetish escort, I also have to think about the cultural aspects.
I married a beautiful girl and we deal not only with interracial aspects but also international cultural aspects.
She is used to American men and dating, I am used to a whole different cultural language and rule set when to dating.
When people say I like French men, Italian men. I always wonder if they are thinking about ethnicity or color. I run into this constantly with my wife, we just don’t understand each other culturally, I can’t understand her behavior or she mine at times and I swear that I think American men must be bestowed with some kinds of mind reading capabilities. Basically culturally we express ourselves different.

I can imagine that in Tiger Woods mind he thought, fuck yeah I crewed up, I just give her more money.
I am not knocking capitalism, but for a Swedish woman from a socialist democratic country where everything is almost equal, maybe money does not factor in so much.
Where here in USA money is everything almost.
I live in New York, the financial capital in the most capitalistic country in the world.

I would be a fool to not think that money and capital, my worth does not permutated every aspect of every relationship.
On all levels.

I am not justifying or vilifying Tiger, I work as an escort, and I do get money for services, but not intimacy. That cant be bought unfortunately although clients try and try.
But I am just saying that maybe Tigers mindset is different from a Swedish mindset. And that thinking of I have money, I am king might hurt him in the end if she walks away.

I see it again and again, men with money that think they are impervious to the trials and tribulations of the common man, due to the fact that they live in a capitalistic society. I wonder how this would have been perceived in another culture.
All I can say is that Tiger made a big mistake when he started trying to have relationships with these women, you don’t give the mistress the same respect and attention as your wife, that’s just disrespectful. You don’t write love letters to them, you don’t get involved.
Here is where escorts come in, we just pretend, we know your heart and soul should belong to your wife or husband. And if not, please don’t stray.
Respect the one your with, she gets a seat at the table, not me, not any escort. We get paid, to go away, not to come.
Poor Tiger..but hey he has turned all the geek brothers to pimps.
Redefining the game hahaha, I bet some girls with “well polished” brothers are now wondering WTF…

Men, Women, And Cuckold Fetishists: Male Prostitutes Speak Out

2009-12-27T19:29:00.000-08:00

Here is an excerpt of the story..
The full story can be found here....
Daily Beast Male Hookers

Apropos of HBO's Hung, The Daily Beast's Tracy Quan spoke with several male prostitutes about their experiences. Among the revelations: a male hooker can make money having sex with women, but he may have to resort to some unpleasant gimmicks.

Quan, an ex-call girl herself, gets her interviewees to dish not just on the quirks of sex work (for instance, some female virgins pay a professional for their first time), but also on gender and race. One male former prostitute, Andrew Rosetta, said his job "would have been a part-time pursuit if I only saw women." Interestingly, he found that when he told his girlfriends about his job, they were more uncomfortable with him servicing women than men. One girlfriend forbade him from seeing female clients at all. With the clients themselves, though, the situation was reversed — the women Rosetta saw professionally didn't want to know that he also slept with men.

Damien Decker, an escort working in New York, takes a different approach. He has sex with female escorts while his male clients watch. "Everybody thinks what I do is so cool," he says, "but there's a racist aspect." Decker is a European black man who usually pretends to be African-American on the job, and his partners are white women who pretend to be a client's wife or girlfriend. Thus, the clients are paying for the fantasy of being cuckolded by a black man. Since these clients never touch Decker, his business model bears out the notion that sex is as much mental and physical — but that doesn't make his job any less disturbing.

Going Straight....

2009-12-27T19:28:00.000-08:00

I recently decided to become straight, as in work. This lifestyle is crazy.
I try to find a normal job, be respectful, I know I can work hard hehe..
Anyways that didn’t go so good. I got fired on my second day. It was actually pure torture to try to pull in a 8 hour day, I feel rotten to the core, I changed so much by escorting? Sex Work? That I cant appreciate hard earned money, well I have to try again, what to say to the in laws? Umm hey this is Damien my husband and he has skills in multiple positions ? I recently discovered how my resume sucks, I have lots of experience but no real life experience. I am pretty good at marketing yes and I could probably own my own business but what do I say for work experience? references? Crazy, life as a escort always looks better in movies, speaking of check out my interview on the new show Hung, I know its pretty old but I didn’t post it before...
Its hard and trying to go straight, although I had great fun with escorting and sex work, one only lasts so long.

Marriage

2009-12-27T19:07:00.000-08:00

I have gotten married!!!!
She looks kind of like this ;)

Ohh about my wife and work..
My wife is wonderful, she is all kinds of beautiful and make me want to be a better man, she is exotic and 22 years old only. But scary smart, much so than me and she is a pacific islander. She makes me want to be a better man and she is my best friend. She makes me so happy, she is a brat but she has my heart, thoughts and well MY MONEY !!!

Gia my wife, she works also and we do the sex shows, and four hand massages, so my life hasn’t changed much. But some clients have been little stand off cause she is my wife. And I think I lost some regulars because they kind of thought they shared a naughty bond, or some kind of boys will be boys attitude with me. I also gained some clients that feel that ist safer to see a real life escort couple.
I do still work with other females, and she works independently also in massage.
I cant believe I am married…

Guest author

2009-08-04T16:56:00.000-07:00

I am going to have a guest author..
Its Gia, my favorite little masseuse..
and partner..
I asked her to write a lil about what she thinks about business of Pleasure from a female view and how its different for males and female.... and her adventures( not anything about me...)

Stay tuned to hear more form her and an introduction...

BTW I have my first memoir reading on the 6th..I am exited but nervous as well....

Sometimes life is good...

2009-08-04T16:48:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really feel good about work, and that when you encounter a client like Will...
He is so cool and I really enjoy the scene or sessions with him.
Its thanks to the fact that he really gets into it and also that he is so exited. I seen him cum twice now without even touching himself.
He is a lifestyle cuckold and is so vividly into the action that I almost have to laugh he comes up with these crazy scenarios that are so fun. The biggest part of it is thanks to my cute partner Gia...
She is awesome and is the best actress I meet. She is totally new but really good at role playing Wills wife...
Off course I get to play with her and that's fun, she got a great body and a sexy smile....

Ohh almost forgot here is the detailed request...Its funny but so cool and strangely hot...
( trust me I had weird people request siomilair but with Will and with Gia..its normal kind of...not weird, normal...)
King Damien

THe request( for real...)

I would like the fantasy to start out with my wife coming out to living room all dressed up like a slut and I say " hey you are dressed like you want to fuck" and she says we need to talk . She is wearing tight micro miniskirt ( black if possible ), Thigh highs ( Black ), satin panties, and fuck me pumps. She sits down next to me on couch. She teases me with neck kisses and sticking her ass in my face, prancing around in front of me showing off her legs and skirt just inches from my face. Then sitting down and letting me run my hand under skirt, touching her panties , spreading her legs...
Then when she has got me HOTT so as to totally humiliate me she drops the bomb !!!!

She eventually tells me she has been fucking a Black stud for weeks behind my back. she met him at work, all the other white married girls have black stud lovers. She explains that my cock just does not do it. She craves big Black Cock. She repeats over and over again that EVERY white girl she knows is fucking BIG BLACK COCK behind their white husbands backs. She thought it was time to have him over to get this in open. he is coming over any minute, Door knock stud enters and wife runs over to him and kisses him as he grabs her ass and pulls her skirt up for me to see what I am not getting, I am in shock when he tells her to get down and take out cock and suck it ....she looks back to me smiles and says " yes sir " . She than sucks his cock like it is the last cock on earth. She purposely looks back at me and stares at me before saying " this is a real cock asshole ! "My wife tells me to get down on knees next to her for a better view of her sucking a real cock. She then says you should pay your respect to black dick and suck it also. If stud does not like how I suck he spanks me in front of my wife while she laughs and calls me a PUSSY and stud is real man here!!!

My wife is than taken to bed , her skirt pulled up and spanked. The stud makes her say things out loud to humiliate me even further.......She is made to say ...."I am you slut...your are my Black Cock Master... You OWN my white ass....Please fuck me.....I will do anything you say...Just please fuck me"....as she gets spanked in front of me....I realize she is not mine anymore.

During long fuck session I must endure putting his cock in and out of my wife's pussy, playing with his nuts while she rides him, when she pulls off him I am told to look close at how well fucked her pussy is and then stroke his cock before putting back in to my "begging for more " whore wife. She screams out how much she LOVES Black Cock the whole time she is getting fucked.

She gets enjoyment out of me jerking stud's big cock and calls me a fag. She laughs and asks if I like black cock and makes me answer yes. She says fuck you queer boy this is my cock and takes it from me.

Sometime at end I jerk stud off in my wife's mouth and she swallows and loves it. I am told this is how life will be and my wife will be living with stud in master bedroom for now on and I will sleep on couch. If I continue to pay the rent and all the bills She will let me watch her get fucked every night. I agree and she says I knew you would understand and feels bad for me and offers me some relief. My wife gives me a sympathy blow job.

I LOVE THIS GUY..
;)

Truth vs. Fiction

2009-08-02T18:36:00.000-07:00

As a male involved in this buisness I am constantly suprised over the misconceptions that "civilians" have of us.
First men in sex work are not sexual freaks or crazy I have a relationship of sorts and I am very faithful in a way...
Another misconception is that girls do this for fun and are drug free....
I have yet meet a single "partner" or escort that's drugfree and the drug of choice is cocaine or heroin...
Trust me there are allot of rich white cocaine and heroin addicted girls especially heroin. All you need to pass inspewction is to look white and all american and cute. When they start escorting they are at the cliff the moments before they end up in the park.
Seriously in reality not every girl dreams about sleeping with older men for fun. Escorts have problems....
As far as male workers the drug use tends to be less..why because we need to get hard...
Drugs are the perfect afrodisiac though it enables one not to feel or care about what is happening to yourself...so yes escorts use drugs allot. In movies we are always so happy and sexual becasue that's what sells but wich client wants to know that their 500 an hour girl is a crack addict or shoots dope?
No one and they don't care....
I could talk about all the fun I had but I would rather keep it real. Its like that porn star jessica james that's heralded like an all american cutie and just sexual by nature and then she shows up on celebrity rehab drugged up and almost passing out...its like that....

No one wants a reality tv show to be real...I deal in fanatsy and in some cases that's giving the audience what they want and tricking myself to belive that the girls are not fucked up....

In reality it never matters I have yet to meet a client that could tell if the girl was on dope or cocaine...they usually think she is drunk or nervous...most clients are the geeks of high school so to speak and now they got money and ability to live their fantasies and come from an era when it was easy to tell the addicts from the good girls...
Now the addicts dress like abercrombie and fitch girls next door....
What a tangled web...of deceit...but the show must go on...its for their pleasure after all...

So WTF have i been up to lately?

2009-07-22T13:52:00.000-07:00

I was interviewed by The Daily Beast about male escorts, talked to National Geographic about males and sex work...
Got contacted and approached by the Tyra Banks Show about it....

Ohh and I became published twice one article in Spread Magazine about my experiences...and another in Unhoused Voices an anthologhy to benefit homless and street walkers.

I have off course worked on my memoir with my co authour Tom Wallace and my mentor David Henry Sterry. I had to turn fown the Tyra Banks show as of now becasue I can't have my face on TV or anything...but I was happy to hear that they where intrested in me.

Oh I also meet the most beautiful creature ever an little angel" Nikki she makes me want to be a better man...
I will work hard on that...(No pun intended...seriously...)

Sadly I lost two friends also one to cocaine and one" my private sunshine" just hates me since I am still in this buisness and she has found the light and got out and now she is all I am better than you!!!
It is what it is....

I am happy and I think I am in love.... She makes me very happy...

Men vs Women

2009-07-22T13:32:00.000-07:00

Ok going to clarify a couple of things....
And that's fiction versus real life between male escorts and female escorts....
I will speak the truth and nothing but the truth......
Ok sorry but all wannabee male escorts prepare to have your dreams shattered....

* Men make about 1/3 of what females make( female gets 400/male gets 100)

* I been paid about 3-4 times to be with a female one on one. (Women don't pay for sex and companionship really... This aint the 70's dude.... )

* What you are doing is something EVERY guy thinks he can do better and should get paid for....( Every guy thinks they are God's gift in bed to women...not every woman agrees...)

* Its like porn every guy thinks they can do it...but not everyone is able..find a niche is not easy and its through invitation only...

* There are 20-1 ratio of female to male escorts and most male escorts are gay or bi....
(If you can't work with men your starving..)

* The good news is there are like zero straight escorts out there the field is wide open...the bad news is there is not any work out there....

* The good news is there is a way to make even more then females !!!! The bad news is ( if your straight) you will be serving men ....

This battle between the sexes will be continueed....

Back in Smut

2009-07-22T13:27:00.000-07:00

Craigslist have changed. With so much exposure on craigslist and everything tthats been happening all my female friends have fled to agencies. Professional sites or become sugarbabes( there are legal sites for legal prostitution actually)
I have been out of buisness since january but been broke and now back at it again...

I wish I could say it was becasue of popular demand....
But no I'm broke and all regulars are comming back, becasue of craigslist have changed so much. Gone are the college girls and now its only professionals. Its funny I am in the world of make belief and fantasy fulfilment...and all my clients do is to pay to be able to be real....

Cuckolding

2008-12-26T16:23:00.000-08:00

One of my favorite assigments in my arsenal of services is cuckolding.
Its also on the very end of my straight spectrum of services.
Cuckolding is highly visual and a cool fetish, for me to be involved in. It takes a very strong man to watch and secure, there is a kind of homoerotic vibe to it though and more often than once has the submissive male turned out to be somewhat bi. Or atleast a muscle worshipper of sorts, kind of how some men live through athletes making them heroes.

Cuckolding is when a man watches another man fuck his wife or girlfriend, something that's his. I have done it many times but often I have to team up with a female that I bring to complete the fantasy. So I was so happy when I got contacted by a Jewish couple out of Brooklyn.
It was her birthday and she wanted to try out someone big. I got the sense that it was more his fetish but it is cool.
I saw some body pics of her and spoke to her on phone to confirm. We meet in midtown for a quick introduction. He and I only, I didn't see her but I had spoken to her but I was getting nervous. He asked me questions to see if I was normal and I passed. He said she got shy in last minute and he asked if it would be ok if we started slow with a massage. I agreed, I wanted to work. He took me to his black SUV and we rode out to his residence in Brooklyn. He was about 5'6 189 lbs in mid 30's and balding, nice guy.
The neighbourhood was all Jewish. Like Hisidic Jewish its the first time I ever been in a Jewish neighourhood and it was kind of cool,they must be some freaky Jewish people. THIS IS AWSOME I thought. He ushered me quickly into the apartment building.

A beautiful two bedroom apartment, very new. He told me that this was just a temorary residence while their house got built.
I was getting little nervous becasue the wife was nowhere in sight.
I got a rum and coke and while watching ESPN, the bedroom door opens and out comes this hot ass tall dark haired girl. She has legs for days, huge fake boobs and is dressed in a white bathrobe.
Her cleavege is out of this world and her face so young looking. The husband,Phil introduces me to his wife Rebecca. She is 19 years old ! I shake her hand as she is blushing and she sits down in sofa between me and her husband. Phil starts to explain the agenda, she is very shy I recon but keeps starting at my arms and chest making me flex subconsiously. I on other hand is feeling a rush of blood towards my lower regions and a familiar swelling as I try to keep my eyes on her face instead of her huge boobs that's attacking my focus. I fail miserably.

"I want you to massage her, while I watch, and strip for her. Be her private little present, can you do that?" I nod off course I can. I can't strip for shit really.
But for her I will do anything, I love nice boobs, fake or real. I don't care, she looks amazing.
" You have a big cock right? " he asks. Guy is a serious vouyer or bi, I nod as Rebecca lowers her head and smiles and blushes. " She wants to feel it and have you rub it all over her" he continues and kisses her.
Its strangly bizaree and kind of creepy, but I am already rock hard.
Another drink and I am ready to go, clocks ticking, time for a show.
Turn the TV on to 90's soul and I begin to undress.
Strip dance, do my best. Rebeccas eyes are focused on me and so are Phils. That makes me feel a little awkward. He starts to touch her and sneaks one hand under her robe, perfect titts, no bra. Someone has paid for that body. I could make allot of money with her as a live show partner, she is a doll.

I feel awsome when he leans in to kiss her and she stays focused on me. I don't care about him as I unbuckle my belt and her eyes turn big. Guess this is what she been waiting for, male escort tool.

"Ready for massage?" I ask her as I unzip and I am down to my white abercrombie boxers.
" Yes ( giggling)" Phil is touching himself. I point towards the bedroom.
They have a massage table set up already and oil.
Perfect.
There is this moment of silence as we all are waiting to get naked,watching each other. I am feeling butterflies in my stomach, since Phil is outstretched on bed watching me. Im going to put my hands on his wife in a couple of moments. Don't know how far I can go, what I can do. Its his wife for fucks sake and she is fucking hot. How the fuck did a 35 something short guy land an 5'8 vixen.
I start slowly pull of my boxers, she follows my lead and of with bathrobe.
" Where do you want me?"
I point to the table she is naked, my heart is pumping hard in my chest, thoughts racing. She has an incredible body, like perfect. I never seen anything like it." On your stomach" Phil doesn't exits for me anymore and is totally blocked out as I lube up my hands with oil and start massaging her shoulders. Gently at first, she gives out sounds as to guide me with the touch she wants.

This is fucking hot, I slowly work my way down towards her apple bottom, I want to make this last. I want to be the best masseur she ever had, I want to come back !
She presses her butt up a little in the air as I start working on her cheeks. Inbetween her legs, up and down her inner thighs.
Suddenly Phil appers in the picture again. He has pulled down his jeans and is jerking off and making noises." Baby touch his cock, touch it" he pleads. Destroying the fantasy of me and Rebecca being alone. Normally I take pleasure in being watched but not now, not with her. This sucks and I think Rebecca thinks so too as she turns her head towards Phil.
" I don't want to" I am getting softer as it feels like my inflated cock suddenly been pierced by her words, but then she continues" not while your her baby, does not feel right. This was supposed to be about me, could you please leave ?" Wow what did I start? I don't know how he will react? Will he be pissed? Crushed? I suddenly feel a sting of symphaty for him, like he is sidelined before the big game. This is his fantasy as much as hers I figure. Will I have to fight with him? Will they fight? Most of all will I get paid if he decides this is bullshit ? Phil looks at me and at her I raise my shoulders, "it's the same for me, Phil I mean, im a masseur so.." What am I supposed to say? On one hand I want to be alone with her but not so obvious and buisness first he has the money stay loyal to the money.
Phil smiles half defeated" anything for you baby, anything for my darling." Jumps up and pulls up his jeans and kisses her while watching me " I will be just outside incase you need me hunny? Ok?"
"Ok baby, love you"
''Love you "
He leaves door open half cocked as he leaves.
As soon as Rebecca hears the TV volume change and turn back to ESPN she turns around.
Shaved pussy with a string, I love it, mountain peak type breast perfectly round like a plastic mannequin. She spreads her legs a little, I take that as my que to lube up again. Drip some oil in my hands.
I am massaging her shoulders, down between her breast, standing with my cock next to her face. This is amazingly hot and I am instantly hard again. I just want to be a beast and shove my cock in her mouth cum on her tits but I am shy suddenly. Her fucking husband that hired me is in next room.

I start to massage her between her legs, inner thighs, she pushes her pussy against me. Its hard to control myself. I can't belive I am getting paid for this ! I keep thinking, touch my cock, please touch my cock ! I don't know what psychic powers I have but as soon as I move to the "happy ending part" she feels me up.
God my cock feels so good in her hand. She strokes me slowly, milking my cock keeping tempo as I insert my fingers in her and play with her clit with my right hand. I meet her eyes and she moves her right hand to her lips and leans forward, about to suck my cock but stops. "Hunny is everything ok?" Fucking Phil man, dude I am about to get head ! She says yes everything is perfect. He asks what we are doing. She just shakes her head apologetichally to me. I smile," Hunny is his dick bigger than mine?" I hear pleadingly form the adjecent room, that almost makes me laugh, Rebecca also, but its so sweet and innocent. " No baby, not at all", she then rolls her eyes backward, leans back and lets me continue to work her.
I press my fingers deeper and push down on her stomach as I pump my fingers deeper in her wet pussy, while massaging her clit with my free hand. She starts to bite her lip as she humps me back, faster and faster breathing heavy. I feel her contractions as she burries her nails in my ass and the side of the table. She comes, not loudly, she could have but out of respect for Phil I think she didn't want to. I did notice how the volume on the TV got louder and louder as she got closer.
Poor Phil, its always like that. When your trying to block a sound out that sound gets magnified, I feel for him. Maybe he wasn't ready for this after all.

She looks at me and smiles as I pull out my fingers and lick them, she tastes like strawberries. She is resting herslef on her forearms and glows. I want to cum and start jerking of, I can cum fast. She watches me, smiling. I put one finger against my lips, "hush". I move my cock against her breast boldly and she pushes them togheter for me. Leans forward, I cum all over her perfect tits and she rubs it in so it won't show. I don't tell her she got some of me in her hair also.

Done, that was fucking hot. I dress and she puts the robe back on again.
We join an ESPN watching Phil in livingroom.
Its a weird silence, my fee is on the glass table seperating us. I have another drink that has been prepared for me on the table, atleast he is a good sport. We chat and I say that I would love to come again and mention that I know girls also for couples massage. I say that to make Phil feel better but he says no, this was perfect! I suddenly understand, he is a cuckold, he has all the money, all the prestige and does anything for his honey.

She gets to play and be with others. As long as they do it together. I thought he was upset, but he loved it, the humiliation, submissiveness.
"Next time I want you to fuck her" he says, I almost choke on my drink and begin to cough. " Next time I would like to do that too" I say.
" Would you like that baby? To fuck him, his big cock? "
She looks at me and smiles kisses him on cheek. This is insane, but strangly hot. I ask what he does, he is a lawyer she models. I nod to that. They all modell when they are young and hot but she could pull it off. She is just a glamourized sugarbabe I figure. But Phil jumps up he can maybe sense I don't belive him and goes into his home office.To pop out as suddenly with a headshot and a couple of photos.

Playboy fucking photos!!!!
She is in Playboy!!!
Fucking cool, I just got paid to be with a girl people would pay for.
I try to look blaze as I go through the photos but im starstruck. My first mastrubation was to my dads hidden Playboy magazines. Fuck many guys first mastrubation was. I want to ask so many questions about the mansion, if she meet Hugh Hefner, the grotto. But I can only stare at photos, blank, mind fucked.

Eyes movin back and forth between Rebecca and the images with open mouth in amazement.This is so cool.
She signs one photo for me and kisses it.

I can't wait to tell all my friends about this.
I am the man. Before I leave, Phil asks me, " hey you do coke? You party?" I don't know what to say don't want to blow my chances to come back by being a junkie I done cocaine before allot to extent I ended up homeless.
So I ask why? He says she gets it for free all the time but does not use it so I can have some.

This turning out to be an amazing night !

PORN STAR !!!

2008-12-26T11:54:00.000-08:00

I subscribe to Internet porn, I admit and I done porn. But I am not prepared for what I see when I cruise into Facialabuse.com

Three of my former live show partners are on the site, one in several clips.
WOW
What a shock.

What a shock, crazy girl, crazy girl.

Craigslist

2008-12-25T11:55:00.000-08:00

I have failed to mention the new developments on Craigslist. Although they are not new anymore, I feel compelled to put my two cents in.
For the uninformed, Craigslist has recently added a feature that forces posters on the erotic services to pay $5 per ad.
And give up adress,phone number, creditcard information basically all your information so that authorities can track you down.
Its premise is to stop underage prostitution and get more control. But as so many times when establishment tries to help or understand subcultures and people with a different lifestyles it goes wrong.

I think more and more independants and college non pros will join agencies.
This pushes the independant away or amateur into casual encounters section.

As for men that largely work independant.

Some escorts work in escorting becasue they can't work legally or have no other means of supporting themselves.

Even if its a side income no one wants to be a labelled as sex worker. Especially gay for pay masseurs as yours trully.
I have a steady stream of regulars and suddenly all the girls I have encountered are either with agency or teams up with me.
I hope one day that the "Swedish model" is enabled in USA. Instead of punishing the sex workers, a profession that is under much stress anyway. One goes after the clients, giving the sex worker power and control. The model works like this, its legal to sell sex but illegal to buy. So I could advertise anything withouth trouble. It makes things allot easier.
Its a fundemental shift in perception. The whole illegality of prostitution in USA is to me very Adam and Eveesque( its a made up word ) but basically its the view that women are forcing the hepless man tricking him with her body and sensuality forcing him to cheat, pay and make mistakes.
Think of words like fallen woman, or fallen angel for male escorts.

In Sweden there are resources to help escorts, make them start over, get out of trafficking. And if they suffer violence they can go to police. I know of a couple of incidents personally where the girl has suffered violence and didn't go to police. Or gay bashing( I know a straight male stripper that got gaybashed outside his work, on his way home.

Anyway I think the new craisglist rule and practice is going to force more people into sex clubs, agencies and further underground.

Intrested to hear from people, sex workers and clients what you think.
You can post comments anonomously..
DD

Crazy 80's !

2008-12-25T01:20:00.000-08:00

I am at this bar right at Christmas eve. I am surrounded by like 5 guys and the bartender.
What the fuck? I thought I was lonely !
But there is 5 guys in bar no females, close to where I live Manhattan. Its my new favorite joint,( I drink allot helps me sleep)
Why are these guys alone? I mean I have a reason I don't have family or friends outside prostitution( ok I have one but he is a Russian mob son so its still shady) but these normal guys, one a lawyer others bankers are so lonely.
I don't get it, its more people in Manhattan than in some countries in Europe. What's wrong?
Its crazy, in a sense they are more alone than I am when I was sleeping on streets street hustling.

Ohh well its fun signing 80's tunes with them. In an odd way it reminds me of why I like escorting, seeing this middle age guys dance, I can imagine the rebels and outcast they where as young.
I have shared many nights with the older versions of James Dean, and other icons of a lost time. These middle age men or older ones where warriors and its a sad thing to suddenly have fame, popularity and spirit pulled away from you. I love older men and women its so sexy. I been good at seeing and imagining the young person they are inside, through their eyes. I love that, their withering shell is just a cover for the spirit inside. Actually one of my favorite clients is an older hippie that loves to have three ways. Straight 50/50 bi and smokes weed like crazy he is in 60's. Come on these guys are the ones that lived the VH1 documentaries, I worship them.

So I love seeing them dance, maybe they come to this bar becasue they feel safe, to be young again. I don't know, but I do love people watching.

Buisness of Pleasure ?

2008-12-24T13:28:00.000-08:00

One of the questions that are almost guranteed to come up sooner or later is the worn out " are you guys doing this for fun or for pleasure ? It usually pops up when I am teaming up with a female partner either for a live sex show or for a threesome or swinger event.

There is this myth that escorts just do it for fun, hypersexual freaks. And yes we are in most cases freaky but in no way do we not know what we are doing
I mean did the donation request just disapear or maybe the client is suddenly struck by a rare form of temporary blindness, like the movie Blindness, whatever it is I hope its not contagious would make it really hard to do my work. To silence all that wonder here is my answer, ITS BOTH the sex and the money!

The donation and that your "helping" out is an essential part of my fetish, it is a turn on. The money, is exiting and walking into the unknown.Prostitution is a drug.

Anonther thing I encounter is that people think I am pimping the girls out, its not like that, its actually many times them that ask to do a threeway or a live sex show.
I don't force anyone, sure they can go alone but some prefer gangbangs and swinger clubs and teaming up.
Its not like I am not "working" also I do 50 % of work as long as client is bi. And I do have this deal with all my female partners, if guy is bi then they are game. If not then its two clients on one girl and she will want double.

In essential when booking a couple you are paying the girls double fee. Becasue she splits it with me. If your not bi, then there is no need for the guy. Don't book a couple, book a single escort get one of your friends to pay also and see her alone if its such a fantasy to do a male/male tag team. But also you have to convince the girl to do it, go to two strangers that are going to well play with her.
I guess its a inbreed assumption that women don't really like sex and one needs to trick them some how entice them. And I am forcing them, me on other hand should just be happy to get laid, I am a guy and sex is always enjoyable. I think its funny that all my female partners see me as an escort but not all clients. I see myself as an escort.

Speaking of such missunderstandings a funny little incident happened to me recently.

Me and Samantha a married former sugarbabe that suddenly felt the urge to be shady again where supposed to meet a Pulitzer Prize winning author and his 20 year old younger girlfriend for a groupsex session.
It was on the Upper West Side where he had a hotel, I seen him before with another female for a threesome, where he discovered he was bi. Moments away from our dinner meeting I can't get a hold of Samantha, she just texted me 1 hour ago but now she vanished. I was starting to panic, nervous stomach and fear was creeping up my back. I had to call and cancel, so I called, but Rob, the author was cool. He said to me to come on up for dinner anyway and meet his girlfriend, a blond school teacher 23 years old. She is not 23 though I am sure, looks older and I am certain she is his sugarbabe, but anyway I went there alone to dinner.
It was very upscale and I felt uncomfortable. Expensive food and tiny portions the resturant was crowded w 64st and Broadway. Lots of old money people, Many forks on table and the wine was unpronounciable. Not good, I get nervous in such settings. I am more comfotable at your neighbourhood sports bar. He and his girlfriend kept asking me questions and I didn't know what to say. I lie so much about who I am to clients so I get confused. I never tell truth until I know them better, paranoid. I was sure I blew it, they kept asking about Samantha and I kept calling and texting, in the middle of dinner.
I get a text from her, her husband has busted her ! She can't come, I start to drink as I tell Rob and his girlfriend.

I drink allot, I am always with a client drinking, its because I get so nervous, and I sometimes have bad confidence.

I am sure tonight will be no money for me and comfort myself with that I will get drunk on his expense, go home and mastrubate looking at pictures from my roomates Suicide Girls photo book.

But Rob tells me that his girlfriend has never had a threesome and she likes my body.
I feel hope, this is awsome, instead of splitting the donation with Samantha I will take it all for myself I am thinking. The guy is bi after all.
Instantly happy again we decide to head to his room across the street. Empire hotel, the room is amazing, I been in some cool places but this is what upscale is all about. Fuck I was homeless a month ago, the bathroom is incased in wodden floors and looks like a art deco sauna.
I begin to undress as Rob strokes his girlfriend, this is hot.
We all end up in bed and Rob keeps telling her to look at my cock, " its so hard, so muscular." She slids down and tastes me, sucks me slowly as Rob is watching, stroking himself.
I flip her around into 69 and he stands up and presses his cock in her mouth while plaing with her asshole and pussy.
Its hot and I am rock hard, but she sucks so slow, not really good. I want to fuck and I am relieved when Rob commands me to prepare her for him.
Finally I think, I turn her over doggy and thrust myself into her, the force forces her to arch her back and she is pushed down into bed.
I begin pumping hard. I had a threesome with Rob before and he likes to go slow motion, holding it, I been doing this for a while so I know I can pump hard and fast, for a long time. I figure I will pump the shit out of her as a contrast to Robs slow pace. She begins to moan louder and louder and Rob loves it, stroking his cock, pushing his cock in her face to get head.

It does not matter how dominant a female is in real life, the share power of two cocks penetrating her is an inprisoning feeling and she is reverting into being at our mercy. She does seem to love it when he gives her orders, obeying his command to do things to me. Bracing herself for my thrusts as he issues orders for me to go harder, faster.

She understands that she is not in control, I am obeying Rob, not her. I belive its a sweet relief for her to not be in charge of her orgasm. And she cums, again and again. Giving in to this unseen force pounding her from behind her while similtaniously she is visually pleasing her lover and sucking him.

Rob says he wants to see my cock fuck her, I stop and flip her over, she is barely 100 lbs and so tiny, as I pull out I notice how wet she is. It squirts on me,not allot but its fucking cool.
I spread her legs in missionary and slide easily in, Rob's playing with her clit while I am pumping her. He keeps commenting the entire time about how erotic this is, how sensual.
But he is such an introvert intellectual that instead of hightening my experience it feels like I am fucking with a commentator.

Think John Madden overseeing your fucking or that Jeopardy announcer commenting your coitus. All this just makes me want to make her cum harder than Rob. And instead of going slower I keep pumping harder I have to get away from this creepy sound bites and commentary before I start laughing.
I cum suprisingly hard and have spasm after spasm. I didn't expect that, the sex wasn't that good but I cum so hard it makes me dizzy.
As I roll off her Rob replaces me, I lay next to her kissing her as she makes me hard again with her hand. Playing with her clit as he pumps her. I want him to pump fast so I can get out of there.

But he can't cum, he gets soft, then hard,then soft. Frustrating, because I am done ! I think he felt some anxiety over that I went first and now he has to do second, but he choose it. And I know men are competitive so I guess he feels that he must make her cum harder. I don't care, I like watching. But I can understand where he is comming from, maybe he is feeling his age, becasue he just had visual of her doing someone younger in same age group. Besides I am already hard again, and he is softening on and off. And I have no idea why I am hard again, she is skinny, small boobs and blond, not my type.

After 1 hour she is spent and has to leave, I waited in bathroom for me and Rob to be alone, showering. Usually its the male that arranges things and the girls know nothing about that its pay for play, in either way if she is what I think, a sugarbabe that's even worse. Becasue prostitutes don't like to share and if her bread and butter is expanding playing field withouth her, they get jelous. We prostitutes don't get along at all in my experience. Its a very "kiss, kiss on cheek" and fake smile, fake enviroment.

When she leaves I get dressed and hang out waiting to get paid.
But he just talks and have conversations about women, but since I am not there for small talk, I finally have to ask the question I hate "so do you have something for me? " he looks suprised at me, " what come on, you have to be kidding me, I invite you over, let you fuck my girlfriend and show you a good time and you expect to get paid? I showed you a good time."

WHAT ??!!!! Ohh noo he knows what I am, why I do this. I got paid last time, I will get paid this time. What he think that when I brought over my female friend the first time I was just along for the ride? Why contact me? Btw most my ads are on male for male and rentboy.com saying I can bring a female also so he contacted me as a male and I brought her along. I get pissed. This guys is a former editor of one of New Yorks largets newspapers and won the Pulitzer Prize he got money !
I explain that I could have seen other clients, I am not doing this for fun. He finally gives me a little.
I think I supprised Rob, that I was actually working while fucking his girlfriend. We had agreed on a donation amount.
I don't think I will see him again.

I have come to terms with the fact that I am a man that has sex for money. The question is have some of my clients ? Wonder what others think, what do you guys think ? Is it ok for women to ask for money in heterosexual arrangements, prostitution but not for men ? Should men just be happy to get laid ? Becasue we are not objects of desire ? Is homosexual prostitution the only time its ok for men to ask for donation ?

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T09:47:00.000-08:00

Happy Holidays everyone !
As the year nears its end I guess I am feeling thoughtful and reflective.
This will mark the 3rd year I am spending christmas alone, away from my family.
I can't complain though another masseur haven't seen his family in 9 years.

I texted and emailed all my regulars and my 3 sugardads as well as real time friends. My russian friend is also here alone and will hang out and get drunk at a bar. He and Roxy where out partying and I have this suspicion that he knows what I work with. He told her that he had no idea of what I did to survive or how I got money but he said "he is my friend no matter what and I don't care what he does, I love him". That was awsome ! I am still not going to tell him though.

Its hard for me to actually take in what happened last year, I was homless for over 6 months. Relegated to street hustling, that's basically the equivalent of street prostitution for females. My adress was nr 6 train and union square, great benches actually and the number 6 train is awsome for its long ride between Bronx and Brooklyn. Its the best train for homeless because its not crowded at night, everyone takes the express. I was very smart to figure that out fast. Showering I also took care of, at 24 hour Gym at 14th street and between 5th and 6th avenue. I used to sneak in and pretend to work out just to use the shower and its open 24/7. I was one goodlooking and Aqua di Gio smelling homeless prostitute.
Work as a street hustler was also real close, the gay bar Splash is just around the corner so I did have a steady stream of lowpaying jobs. I actually had one guy that saved me. He was a graphic designer in mid 30's lives around 28th street and 2nd ave. He claims to be straight but just loves to suck dick. I went there every wednesday for watching some pussy porn as he called it and lay back and he just serviced me and gave me head.
He always showed hardcore porn for me to watch and gave me drinks.
I didn't have to do anythng to him, he was actually real good at giving head. I used to close my eyes and pretend it was a woman, he had excellent technique not sloppy or to fast but milking it. His technique was awsome lips moving down and up while,hands moved synchronized in a twisting motion. He also had the decency to move out of the way so I could focus on his big screen TV and watch porn. Excellent easy money !
It was the first time I enjoyed being alone with a guy. Love porn, thank you for the distraction and vivid imagination. I guess I should feel bad or weird but heck. I worked with enough females to know that they all bend sooner or later. My first partner swore she was not bi, but she now does bi threeways all the time. And even Roxy dabbles. Everyone has a price, well atleast I do. Im terrible bad at begging anyway.
I don't have a huge christmas wish list and I have been a bad bad boy so I don't know what to ask for, but I know for sure I never want to sleep on the streets again ! Its so cold and I am really not cut out for it but I learned the value of a well placed FUCK YOU BITCH ! It keeps other homless people away form my bench!

About me !

2008-12-23T17:25:00.000-08:00

I should have done this first.
Ok so my name isn't Damien Decker, and no you can't have my real name.

I am honest with all my exploits and all names of my partners are fictious and also clients, I do this to protect myself and also my friends.

What did you expect ?
Shusshhh discretion is key..
;)

Why do Men buy sex ? Why not women?

2008-12-23T16:31:00.000-08:00

I don't know....
But people seem to be determined to figure it out.
I have my own theories actually and some of them are confirmed in the newest issue of SCIENTIFIC AMERICAN MIND the December 2008/ January 2009 issue.

Its an intresting articleby Dr. Nikolas Westerhoff named " Why do Men Buy Sex ?" And trust me its as flabbergasting to us prostitutes also, trust me. O matter what anyone claims there is no simple answer or magic formula.
One of my female partners , Jen, sent the link to me by email as we often wonder why, I always think its just hornyness but its not, I personally lean towards the explenaition that its simply more of a companionship issue. Creating a safe fantasy where freakiness is accepted.
Jen by the way is a specimen. 5'5 130 lbs and 36dd-28-26, white college girl 21 years old. I have such a crush on her she is so cute I always try to get her first for sex shows and threesomes and groupsex.

Because I love feminine women and her boobs are firm, like natural firm. In my line of work I seen incredible bodies, porn star dicks like 12 inches and thick as coca cola cans, girls with naturally barbie doll bodies. And the funny thing is that they all been unsecure. Like Jen her body is in my top 3 best bodies category but she suffers from a huge strange case of body dismorphy. She thinks she is not fit.

Anyway I love her she is so smart and freaky and loud.

Back to the article, its very good and informative, but does not answer any question. And I can understand why, becasue men buy sex for different reasons, some for sex, some for companionship.
Its so complicated and its so hard to explain especially for me as a male prostitute that has sex with women.

My biggest pet peeve with all these studies really is that they focus so much on women, I am in Manhattan and its a huge underground or visable actually gay hustler, rent boy culture here and I guess I fit into that but I don't really get with men unless super broke. Something I admitedly am guilty of MUCH, being with men and broke.

I only know one guy that has taken his time to study male escorting in deepth and that's Joseph Itiel, his book about male hustlers are informative.
If you know any others please let me know or find studies on male escorts that do straight sex or sex shows...btw its mentioned about sexshows in "The Price" Natalia McLennons 2008 Memoir, a passage of her getting paid to have sex with a male escort. I am not alone !

My Own Private Idaho and an old friend...

2008-12-23T14:26:00.000-08:00

I spent the day tring to decide if I should rent the movie My Own Private Idaho by Gus van Zandt myself, or have my friend get it for free from the library. I need to see that movie its a classic for hustlers/rent boys. And I admire Gus van Zandt as a director ever since I saw Elephant. He is bleeding indy and a powerful voice against establishment, it strickes a cord withthe rebel in me. He magically just don't just try to show the characters or story but makes sure you understand the emotions of the characters and movie. He is a powerful advocate for real life issues of people on the edge of society.

The only problem is that my friend is gay and in love with kind of. I love him to death as a friend and visit regurally to check up on him and eat dinner or lunch,bring him the paper. He is 65 and hard at he aring and lonely, I never ask for anything I enjoy talking to him. And everyone needs friends. But its just hard when your gay for pay hustler to have someone fall in love with you. Because I am gay for pay not for fun. What made what I was about to do later on little hard.

An old friend had scheduled a visit by me, I call him that since he is kind of a sugardad/friend/ client/benefactor all in one.
It was weird, because it was the first time I really been alone with him.
We smoked weed and hung out and I got way to drunk to perform. I kind of always do get drunk when alone with a guy. Three years of hustling and I haven't still managed to calm down and convince myself I am bi.
Me and this particular friend have a history.

We meet about two summers ago, me and this beautiful Canadian girl, Roxy, that was a struggling actress new to New York.
She had a benefactor relationship before and she could not find anything like it here in New York. I was fresh of my first 6 months of being a male escort and never thought about having a sugardad until her, even for never thought of anyone wanting a male to be that.

All I had learned about male escorting I learned from two older escorts in The East Village brothel I belonged to for 6 months, I asked her if she would team up with me, she agreed and I immediatly found a bisexual sugardad for us.
It was my first bi experience really.
And it was AMAZING ! Sure I done the gay for pay stuff but never been active before and it was her first threesome with two men. He is Jewish,in 50's in great shape and a totall renneisance man, big weed smoker, almost like having Cheech and Chong as your old dirty uncle,and he listen to our kind of music. I always saw him as a peer dispite the age different. He didn't try to act young, he was just young at heart. He has a penthouse in heart of midtown. He was so cool from moment me and her came in, we clicked on all levels emotionally,mentally and sexually. We used to meet once a week after that every thursday for smoking weed drinking an hours of sex.

She was so cool and her personality amazing. Half white/half asian a beautiful mix and so warm. He and I became more like friends than he my benefactor. But we drited apart especially after she left for Canada again. Now recently she moved back to New York and they have been meeting each other, and now I was going there alone. I was so nervous, it was awkward. But I managed, he came hard and I guess he was impressed by my skills and my body. He didn't belive I don't work out, his hands where all over my abs. He ended our nude wrestling session by mastrubating on my butt, I know he came hard, one of my favorite things is actually collecting sound bites of men climaxing, since I started doing escorting and men can have soft orgasm or huge ones, he had a big one. I was so drunk and stoned I could not move. Afterwards we smoked some more he spoke about various sugarbabes and asked about Roxy, if me and her are still doing threeways together, and he asked if it was ok for him to see her alone. I didn't know what to say, its ok for me but I do want money. I was a little worried that he was upset that I could not get hard. I have always managed in threesomes no matter how bi the activity I manage as long as a female is there. I hope we can see each other again, and I need to talk to Roxy so we get our stories straight.

He said that next time we will be at my place but I am not sure if he will want me to go back. Its a shame cause he is really cool and one of the few guys I like hanging out with I will miss the fact that he didn't treat me like a hustler, but as a friend. And of course steady money is always welcome.